hopeless

speechless...
not even know how to describe tat kind of feelings...
like studying?
nope... is just studying for the certificate only!
don try to say NO!
this is a reality world...
u will look down by people without owning a certificate ...
but because of this certificate....
what happen to the student?
Student start forcing themselves study study study and study....
memorizing memorizing and  memorizing all the slides and notes given..
den write it out on the exam paper..
most of the student do not realize on what they are actually writing..
Smart student will straightly kick out and delete the subject file from their mind...
Smart student will tear up the paper and throw into the rubbish bin provided ..
Smart student will cry out ...
Smart student will feel exhausted..
Smart student will console their frenz who are sad...
Smart student will think of Don wanna study anymore...
smart student wil choose to commit suicide...
Smart student will start becoming a NUN and MONK...
that's all the ways smart student release their tension..
with these all kinda idiot ways...
u will only feel that is still a hope...
many people are waiting you...
waiting you graduated ...
waiting you taking over their business...
more and more...
i feel tired ...
but i realize on there's still some of the secret hidden in the corner of my heart...
Panadol ? like it?
i have been addicted with it these few days..
it totally manage me ....
study until every morning 8.30am...
but its actually dreaming all the Night...
Empty brain till every morning..
sleep with alarm everyday ...
gastric everyday...
eat medicine everyday...
complaining myself everyday...
conclusion...... its meaningless a to be a human....